A Month of Summer

I'm relatively done with one month of summer. The weather hasn't proved to be much summer esk. I've moved back home, settled in a room that's not my own, started working two jobs which aren't very fruitful in the sense of green, fell in and out of love and ready for something new. I don't know whether to blame my A.D.D. or if I should just blame my desire for newness and adventure. So here's a toast to adventure. What will I find in this wonderland of life? Shall I pray for newness in spirit or rather a quenching of my thirst? Time will tell...this song came on right after Matt got out of the car yesterday...


Behind These Hazel Eyes
by Kelly Clarkson
album: Breakaway (2004)
Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hanging on
[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, yet so broken up inside
Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore
Anymore
[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
[Chorus:]
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes